Stand your ground

Back to years ago, I watched an old school movie called "To Kill a Mockingbird". That movie was filmed 5 decades ago, honestly, I didn't quite understand the whole movie because it took place in 1930's (I had studied American history, but I still think it's boring). Therefore, I didn't quite enjoy it back then, until recently I decided to watch it again ..... with the assitance of the subtitle. Then I just reliazed that it's actually a very good movie.

The story of this movie is about the leading actor, Atticus, as a lawyer. How he stood his ground to help an innocent black young man from accusing of raping a white lady; while the whole town forced him dropping the case by racial pressure. I like the storyline and the meaning behind the story. To stand your ground and keep going if you think you are right, no matter how people judge you.

However, how many people can actually do it? One of my respective senior once told me, "Words can be useful depends on how you use it, it also can be vicious or even sometimes can kill someone's life." Indeed, everytime I make any decision, people tend to tell me what to do... I appreciate their concern... however, perhaps it's my personal issue, I'm very easy to be influenced by surrounding and easy to be panic. For instance, sometimes, I go to bookstore, I feel like want to go magazine section or cooking section, but I afriad of the way of other people looking at me and judging me... "How on earth a big guy enjoys a magazine?" "He must be a 'gal' ". So I just cold-feeted.

I had talked about this to my friends, they all said that I'm over thinking and paranoid, I know... but I just can't stop those voices appear in my mind and some strange eyes keep staring behind me. I know those are frictional and unreal and I should totally overcome those mentally distractions by myself.

Last week I watched the latest season of American idol ( I used to like this show, but I started losing the interested while I grow older. Simon and Paula are no longer the judges in this show, replaced by Steve Tylor and JLo. I know Kara and Ellen D were judges in this show before...but long story...). One of the contestant, Casey Abrams refuses to listen the mentors Jimmy and Will.i.am both claim that song he picked was too boring; but he stood his ground and insisted on his song choice and eventually won the crowd. (Although he was eliminated, still got saved by judges dramatically; well... entertainment, that's what I'm talking about.) Another contestant, James Durbin did heavy metal. He said something caught my attention. "I don't want to be one of the face of the million, I want to stand out to be different." and he rock that night.

Genting Highland founder, Tan Sri Lim Goh Tong ignored what other people said and insisted of building Genting Highland theme park on the mountain, and his success is obvious. APPLE's CEO, Steve Jobs centralizes the authority, and never listen to anyone to subordinate his decision making; he trust his instinct and own judgement, and leads to the successful of APPLE.

In fact, disgarding the success or failure, every single decision is the part of the journey of your life; no matter it's a successful decision or failure decision, it is the best decisions for your life, because they create your own life.

So, decide our own life and live with it.