Wake up in the morning, but my eye still cannot open properly, searching my cellphone underneath my pillow and checking what is the time. it's 9:10am. Although I'm unemployed right now, but I still insist to wake up in the morning time, because I really enjoy morning hours, it makes me feel enerygized and refreshing.
Then, calling my friend for a breakfast, getting everything all set and meet him at the kopitiam where we should meet 3 to 4 time each week. For me, I was considered lucky that I still have a close friend in my hometown, because a small town like this, most of the people like my age all moved to big city like Singapore or JB for working. Thus, I really appreciate him that spending his free time with me, as I have so much free time to kill... But he is busy, he is running his own business of managing and transporting vegetable from Johor to Singapore, in this town, a lot of people are doing this kind of business as there are a lot of farmers here and most of their goods are selling out to Singapore, that makes them earn the big bucks. There are a quite a few number of people who become wealthy because of this business. However, this business is considered old blue collar business, most of the young generation refuse to take care of it or inherit the business from their parent, thus, most of them who handling this business are older generation. But my friend who is willing to manage this business and to be honest, he is doing quite ok.
Anyway, as he is doing his business, he is very busy, sometimes I will go to help him for 'buddy' sake. Even he is having breakfast or dinner with me, his topic cannot leave without vegetable. Honestly, I'm sick of it. My Godness!!
After having breakfast, I came back home, my parent are sitting at the living room watching TV and reading newspaper, I sat on the sofa, picked up a newspaper and begin to read...here they go.... ask me about my job hunt... and keep nagging to me, I should do this should that...it's not easy to staying in Singapore, you cannot spend too much money...blah blah blah...
perhaps you guys forget, I stayed in US for 4 years, and nobody took care of me by that time but myself. I know how to take care of me!! stay out of my business! my heart is struggling for it, but I won't say it out loud....because I still respect them as my parent...
I'm in pain....and I'm under a lot of pressure, which even makes me couldn't breath at all sometimes...but the worst thing is no one is there for me to listen what I want to say... i need a listener to share the significate pain and stress which hided underneath of my heart... everyday i have been eaten up by those pain and stress little by little...and I think I'm losing the feeling and sensation gradually become numb...
I'm pathetic loser...
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Sunday, January 16, 2011
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Wake up in the morning, but my eye still cannot open properly, searching my cellphone underneath my pillow and checking what is the time. it's 9:10am. Although I'm unemployed right now, but I still insist to wake up in the morning time, because I really enjoy morning hours, it makes me feel enerygized and refreshing.
Then, calling my friend for a breakfast, getting everything all set and meet him at the kopitiam where we should meet 3 to 4 time each week. For me, I was considered lucky that I still have a close friend in my hometown, because a small town like this, most of the people like my age all moved to big city like Singapore or JB for working. Thus, I really appreciate him that spending his free time with me, as I have so much free time to kill... But he is busy, he is running his own business of managing and transporting vegetable from Johor to Singapore, in this town, a lot of people are doing this kind of business as there are a lot of farmers here and most of their goods are selling out to Singapore, that makes them earn the big bucks. There are a quite a few number of people who become wealthy because of this business. However, this business is considered old blue collar business, most of the young generation refuse to take care of it or inherit the business from their parent, thus, most of them who handling this business are older generation. But my friend who is willing to manage this business and to be honest, he is doing quite ok.
Anyway, as he is doing his business, he is very busy, sometimes I will go to help him for 'buddy' sake. Even he is having breakfast or dinner with me, his topic cannot leave without vegetable. Honestly, I'm sick of it. My Godness!!
After having breakfast, I came back home, my parent are sitting at the living room watching TV and reading newspaper, I sat on the sofa, picked up a newspaper and begin to read...here they go.... ask me about my job hunt... and keep nagging to me, I should do this should that...it's not easy to staying in Singapore, you cannot spend too much money...blah blah blah...
perhaps you guys forget, I stayed in US for 4 years, and nobody took care of me by that time but myself. I know how to take care of me!! stay out of my business! my heart is struggling for it, but I won't say it out loud....because I still respect them as my parent...
I'm in pain....and I'm under a lot of pressure, which even makes me couldn't breath at all sometimes...but the worst thing is no one is there for me to listen what I want to say... i need a listener to share the significate pain and stress which hided underneath of my heart... everyday i have been eaten up by those pain and stress little by little...and I think I'm losing the feeling and sensation gradually become numb...
I'm pathetic loser...
Then, calling my friend for a breakfast, getting everything all set and meet him at the kopitiam where we should meet 3 to 4 time each week. For me, I was considered lucky that I still have a close friend in my hometown, because a small town like this, most of the people like my age all moved to big city like Singapore or JB for working. Thus, I really appreciate him that spending his free time with me, as I have so much free time to kill... But he is busy, he is running his own business of managing and transporting vegetable from Johor to Singapore, in this town, a lot of people are doing this kind of business as there are a lot of farmers here and most of their goods are selling out to Singapore, that makes them earn the big bucks. There are a quite a few number of people who become wealthy because of this business. However, this business is considered old blue collar business, most of the young generation refuse to take care of it or inherit the business from their parent, thus, most of them who handling this business are older generation. But my friend who is willing to manage this business and to be honest, he is doing quite ok.
Anyway, as he is doing his business, he is very busy, sometimes I will go to help him for 'buddy' sake. Even he is having breakfast or dinner with me, his topic cannot leave without vegetable. Honestly, I'm sick of it. My Godness!!
After having breakfast, I came back home, my parent are sitting at the living room watching TV and reading newspaper, I sat on the sofa, picked up a newspaper and begin to read...here they go.... ask me about my job hunt... and keep nagging to me, I should do this should that...it's not easy to staying in Singapore, you cannot spend too much money...blah blah blah...
perhaps you guys forget, I stayed in US for 4 years, and nobody took care of me by that time but myself. I know how to take care of me!! stay out of my business! my heart is struggling for it, but I won't say it out loud....because I still respect them as my parent...
I'm in pain....and I'm under a lot of pressure, which even makes me couldn't breath at all sometimes...but the worst thing is no one is there for me to listen what I want to say... i need a listener to share the significate pain and stress which hided underneath of my heart... everyday i have been eaten up by those pain and stress little by little...and I think I'm losing the feeling and sensation gradually become numb...
I'm pathetic loser...
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Human always like that. When you overseas, u'll miss everything & everyone, especially something VIP like your parents. BE appreciate for parent all the time although they dunno how to Ask or Know what going on with you. :D Cheer up char siew bao, EAT MORE VEG! wahahahahh
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